Let's see, did I practice on Wednesday? I don't think so. I had to go to the physical therapist really early, then later on to an appointment with the attorney to draw up my will. So I skipped that day.
Had a great practice yesterday, though. Breathing is truly a great new experience, but only possible when I'm behaving myself. Yesterday, I was; today I'm not. So it goes, as Vonnegut used to say.
I want to learn. I want to overcome my weaknesses and move on. It's so hard.
We can only learn from those who know more than we do, who are stronger than we are. Why do we have to be so weak and stupid?
Today I have homework to do -- reading and coloring in my anatomy books. That's how I'll spend the rest of the day, except for a brief blogpost at "Catboxx" which I'll cannibalize from BNet.
No BNet today, other than that. It'll be good for me. Tomorrow is all-day class in Seattle. That will keep me behaving.
I really need to be in an institutional environment where somebody else has charge of my behavior. I need to relinquish control of myself to some form of authority. I'm beginning to think it's my only hope.
1 comment:
Dave, it's good being honest with yourself.
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